I have had many horrible days or weeks which often leave me feeling like a ‘bad’ person. I have learned to understand these times as hormonal times! Before I understood this, I struggled really badly. Hurting someone could have been a real possibility! I screamed at the children and I drove my husband crazy. Not nice at all. Depression also hit me badly some of these times, and as a result of the hormonal depression, I got even more depressed. Condemnation was a huge factor for how I had behaved, which caused me to sink even deeper into depression. This nasty cycle left me completely exhausted.
When I was in my twenties I cried out to God as I didn’t understanding why I was so up and down. Why some days I was this evil woman that was out of control. I clearly remember crying my eyes out as a new Christians feeling so guilty for being so bad. At the time I was doing a lot of reading and came across a book where they author mentioned her struggle too. This really encouraged me as I realised that I wasn’t bad at all I was merely struggling with the effect of premenstrual hormones racing around my body. Sadly she didn’t offer any miracle solution. Her solution was to pray and ask God for help and to keep trying to work on self control. Although I was relieved to hear I was normal and wasn’t some evil person, I was discourage as there was no quick fix solution, and I could see the long journey ahead in trying to deal with this.
Over the years I have found a few keys that you might also find helpful, but honestly if you suffer severely I would recommend seeing a doctor. You might need to do something like change your birth control or alter your diet.